Eight days and my story on this earth counts for twenty three years. Eight days on 8/18/18. The reality of it is that the universe works in mysterious ways and this might be one of my most memorable birthday’s. I’ve hit rock bottom at least eight times now, and this time; bottom feels different. I’m determined to get back on the wave. Both my sister and my mom have admitted that their most celebrated year was their 23rd. So, of course, I will put immense pressure on myself to have the best year possible. With that being said, this birthday will be memorable for multiple reasons.
First and foremost, not that I haven’t said this already, but I am a little weird. This time, I’ll explain how I’m weird about the number eight. I may have taken a few snowman’s on the golf course, but I still love the number(it’s probably better if you don’t know what I mean by that). As I was saying, the number eight has significance to me. I was born on 8/18 obviously, but it was 8:08 in the morning and I weighed 8lbs 8 ounces. Come on! Some sort of magic is being thrown at me on this specific birthday. If not, I’ll make some magic on my own and it will be memorable, gosh dammit.
Another reason to love this birthday is by the people I plan to spend it with. Every day, I spend time with people I love which I’m so grateful for, but they’ve made other plans to avoid my magical day(it’s fine, really). The universe works mysteriously and somehow this birthday feels the most, “meant to be moment,” and it hasn’t even happened yet. The feeling comes from more than my parents and siblings being absent from my day(it’s really okay, I swear). More than the pit in my stomach screaming in search of happiness. Yet, I will finally be able to spend this time with the most loving and fun people. It just so happens that one these people was one of the first to see me in the hospital when I was born too(888 coincidence)! It’s a sign that the moments we’ll share have been nothing but magical and will continue to do so.
One quote that speaks to me right now is, “Reality starts creeping toward you like the tide and that’s the first time you have thought, what do you do now?” This past year has hit me like the tide and I’ve explained the amount of questions that fill my head. I’m hoping to let go of these in the next 8 days. This upcoming year dedicated to fun will allow me to focus on the practice of loving, learning, and forgiving like never before. I’ve asked the questions and I’ve found the answers. I know where to find my more. The tide has come and gone. This will be the best year yet. Thank you, Universe, you’ve done it again.
